Yes I am very uspset but am I gonna show it nope. Like its not just the fact that your going without me its the fact that it’s a bunch of couples like wtf… And your all like it’s gonna be so hard to have fun without you psh bs your probably gonna have a bunch of fun hang out with everyone after and probably have a sleepover and not talk to me the next day oh yeah sound great sigh and whats the point of even telling you this your not gonna do anything about it -_-‘

Are you embarrassed of me because that sure as hell what it feels like…you don’t like holding my hand outside of school you barley kiss me in the hall anymore….I’m tired of having to beg you to hug kiss or hold my hand…I shouldn’t have to do that!!! I just miss how it was when we first started dating…its like now that you have me you think you don’t have to try anymore….I guess I just won’t try either and we’ll have to wait and see what happens…:/

Idk what to do anymore…you don’t even seem like you want to be with me anymore…when I told you the most personal thing about myself you refer it to nicole…do you know how much that hurt me on the inside…after you did that I didn’t want to be with you anymore…I wanted to break up with you right then and there…you broke my heart with just one sentence…idk you just don’t seem like you wanna talk to me…I don’t think your ever going to love me….or even think about saying te words…it feels like this is just a high school relationship and that’s it it seems like you think this is just temporary…you never call me first you never text me first anymore…I really think this is…over…I’ve given so much of me to you already that’s why this hurts so much…you never wanna hold my hand in public…that makes me feel like your embarrassed to be with me…but I know you’d never what to admit to that…this sucks I wish I didn’t care so much about you it would make this so much easier…

Ugh all I can think about is tonight…last weekend was incredible I keep spacing out and thinking about everything that happend last weekend…I don’t wanna wait till 8:30 I want to hang out right now….but its gonna be so perfect ^_^ <3 I can’t stop zoning out ugh

I feel like things are really distant between us…I miss being in your arms close with my head on your chest I miss seeing how you use to look at me….I just wish things were back to how they were before… I just hope it can go back to that

So I was sooo scared that today was gonna be like yesterday but then I was surprised when you held my hand laughed with me and smiled like you meant it…when you looked at me this time it wasn’t with hatred or anger you looked at me like you were honestly happy to be with me and you wanted this as much as I did…when we were hugging I never wanted to let go tbh I kept wishing we were at your house holding onto each other kisses doing what we did that weekend smiling cuddling just thinking about it makes me smile…I can’t wait till this weekend I wish there was some way we could hang out nonstop but we can’t :/ idk I just miss spending hours with you…when I’m with you I don’t think about anything except for us its like I’m in my own little world with you <3 and I never wanna leave

I know nothing I say right now will make everything better but I can tell you this I’m not gonna give up on our relationship I wanna be with you more than I’ve ever wanted to be with someone…ill be honest when things got hard with a guy in my past relationships id give up and run away bbut I’m not running from you I’m not running from this I’m gonna give this my all because your worth fighting for you don’t have to believe any of this but I really wish you will and if you do ghen thank you for still having some trust in me

I feel terrrible right now I look the part to I just hope he knows that I learned from my mistake and he sees that I want and need him very badly….they way he was talking with no emotion was honestly the biggest punishment I could ever get I am literally gonna be the most honest with him then I am with anyone…I’m gonna make this right I just hope he realizes how hard it was to come forth and tell him…I hope he still trusts me and can still tell me everything…I don’t blame him for being pissed he has every right I seriously wish I could just give him a hug right now and kiss him till everythings the same again…he means the world to me and I hope he knows that ill will do anything to make everything right again…I wish I could say I love him but…its to early for that and plus I want him to say it first because I know when he says it first he will really mean it