Why do I feel like my heart is breaking…I can’t put anything on fb or twitter anymore :’( but I feel like I’m gonna lose him soon…I just wish I could stop this he’s friends with so many beautiful black girls and it hurts…I don’t know how much longer I can do this for :’( I wanna cry for hours nonstop. I want to stop from getting my heart broken…we’ve been almost dating for three months…but people date for years and then one day it means nothing to them…I wish I was with him but…he’s better off with someone else…so I guess were over and done…and I just really thought you were the one… 3
My birthday was pretty good I got some stuff I wanted and it was nice…tonight your going to a party and I’m freaking out…I know there are gonna be girls there that are gonna be checking you out, flirting with you and trying to get in your pants…but its whatever…I’m just I’m done caring…I’m not gonna care anymore and whatever happens in this relationship happens…it could break or it could last…so I guess its okay..
Doess it even cross your mind that I stare at you when your not looking bc I just can’t believe your dating someone like me? Does it even cross your mind that that look I give you means that I wish you would say I love you mia and I never want to lose you? Does it ever cross your mind that the reason I get so upset when you have to hang up is bc I miss you and your the only one that makes me really happy? Does it ever cross your mind that the reason I always surprise you is because I just want to see you smile? Does it ever cross your mind that I try sooo hard every single day to look good just for you and only you? Does it ever cross your mind that the reason I say goodnight everynight is because your the last person I wanna talk to before I go to bed? I guess it doesn’t because you never notice any of this…and if I get so mad sooo much why are you with me?…
If you could be a candle, where would you want to be placed?
He said, “Anywhere near you.”
Today its been two months <3 I love saying that :) you make me so happy…if I ever need someone to talk to I can always talk to you…you drive me crazy sometimes but I still love you even more…you make me constintley laugh and smile…your cute laugh and sweet smile the way you pull me in even closer when we kiss our little play fights <3 you love me despite all my imperfections and I love how yesterday we were in the care singing along with the music it made me soo happy I would listen really hard because I love hearing you sing….when you can’t stop kissing me <3 that was cute :) oh haha and when I made the couch of shame a good thing you thought it wasn’t fair but I thought it was really funny I like when you move your thumb back and forth on my hand :) and when you hold me tighter and tighter ^_^ and when you put your head against mine looking into my eyes…what scares me is that you know everything about me all my secrets well…except for one…but I can’t tell you that…I know it will ruin everything its better if I keep it to myself…anyway I’m excited for spring break I wonder what were gonna do :) but hopefully its great <3 I love you sam
I wanna tell you the truth. I really love you. You make me smile you make me laugh you make me happy when I’m sad. I want you to tell me that you love me too.
So I miss having your arms around me while I sleep I miss waking up and you being the first thing I see…I want to sleep with you more not just once…I wish you could be here everynight kiss before I go to bed and when I wake up….every single ogt test I always trail off and think about you…idk why but i keep picturing you when you were over me and your head was hanging down and I just saw the out line of your muscles and I just thought is this a dream because for me to have someone sooo perfect in so many ways its to good to be true…I wonder if you ever think that about me…I hate how insecure I am I know you don’t like it but its hard…anyway I just keep thinking of being with you…ooooh and when you call me baby idk y but it sounds so amazing it makes me feel like I’m yours <3
So I’m a little nervous for today like even though this isn’t the first time but were both gonna be sober and idk I think its gonna be different but I think its still gonna be great :) I can’t stop thinking about it thinking about it makes me want you right now….I wonder what I’m gonna wear…maybe some soffe shorts ugh idk
I’m getting so tired of heating about him and nicole like.wtf!!! I should NOT be hearing about him and another girl that pisses me off sooo bad like seriously? I’m your girlfriend not her! I should be hearing awww I saw you and sam walking together <3 NOT! I saw nicole and sam walking together….. :/ like do you not see what’s wrong with that…I seriously wish he had nothing to do with her at all like I wish he didn’t even make eye contact with her sometimes but I can’t say that because that’s really mean and bitchy I have to keep it together and act like I don’t give two shits about what he does or who he walks with SIIIIIGGGGGHHHH! I’m so mad she just it makes me mad….I hate the fact that no matter what their gonna be fucking besties ugh fuck that oh well